Emma went to Kindergarten 2 years ago. I remember the anxiety I felt sending my first born out into the world. Feelings of “did I prepare her enough”. Would she find her teacher ok?, Will she make friends? , Will she cry and miss home? , Will she go to the bathroom when she needs to?, Will she be brave and stand up for herself?, Knowing she is quiet and sensitive…will she not get lost in the crowd? I remember that first day of school so vividly. I had a knot in my stomach the whole night before and morning. I couldn’t believe that this tiny little baby I had brought home from the hospital was big enough to already go to school….all day long! She was leaving the nest and having to learn that kids can be mean and not everything is just like home. I remember trying to hold back the tears the first time I saw her wearing a backpack bigger than she was! The moment that big yellow bus came and I got one last hug….happened in an instant and it was all over! I balled my eyes out as the bus pulled away and I saw the 3 little fingers signing “I love you” out the window. Then I turned and saw this sweet little 3 year old holding my hand saying “it’s ok mom, we will be ok”.
I didn’t feel completely alone because I had someone else who needed me during the hours of 8-3. My little buddy, my side-kick, my helper Hannah. We filled our days with fun adventures and memory making. We truly had time to bond now that it was just the two of us! Of course, the time has now come….my youngest is about to head off in a little over a week and it’s hard all over again for different reasons! I have some of the same worries I had 2 years ago, but some different as both girls have different personalities. I still worry that she will become just another face in a sea of 5 year olds. I worry that she will give in to peer pressure because she longs to be a good friend, that she won’t eat her lunch, that she won’t pay close attention to her teacher because she gets easily distracted, and I worry that she will get so tired because she still regularly needs rests. Hannah is ready, I know she is.
It’s time for me to let her grow up, but I also worry about myself. I worry about the once coveted silence will be deafening, I worry that I have no purpose if I’m not spending the majority of my time with at least one of my children. I worry that I won’t be needed as much. The years I have been able to be at home with my children have been the absolute hardest and best years….I would not have traded them for anything. The memories, the bonding, the hard days were worth it. But it’s a loss knowing that this time went too fast and is over. I’m excited for them and all they are going to learn and experience, but it ain’t easy being a mom!
I am finally having the chance to sit down and write a post about our new bathroom! I have been waiting years for our bathroom to be different and this summer was finally the year. As you all might recall, a little over a month ago, I was vulnerable and showed you our old bathroom that needed a significant face lift. Here are some of those pictures.
We decided to make our own vanity to save some money. We had an old dry sink that we decided to flip. Unfortunately, I did not save a picture of my own dry sink, but I took a picture of one that my mother in law has that is almost identical. Here is the before and after of the dry sink turned into sink vanity.
Finally, the bathroom is finished and it is now my favorite part…making it pretty and put together! There is still a few small finishing touches left to do, but I am happy to say that it’s just about done! Now it’s time for the big reveal. It’s like when you watch “Fixer Upper” with Chip and Joanna Gaines and they are just about to pull apart the big screen that has the picture of the owners “old house” on it. Picture me yelling “EVERYONE ARE YOU READY TO SEE MY NEW BATHROOM!!!” ha ha. Well, without further adieu…
an antique sifter and a cabin & mountain pencil sketch I found to display above the toilet
Well worth the wait in my opinion. Glad the project is over and I don’t have to cringe when people need to use our bathroom!!!
Well, this post is titled “Way Too Long!!!” because it really has been way too long since I have given you any updates. The bathroom project is finally finished, but before posting any pictures I need to wrap up some finishing touches. I am hoping that next week I can finally give you my official “after” post! This summer has been BUSY!!!! But then again….what summer isn’t?? Really!
Today, I am going to share with you something I am really really excited about!!! I recently was gifted, by one of my good friends, with the most amazing antique. She asked me several months ago if I had any interest in taking an old antique spinning wheel off of her hands. You can only imagine my excitement! To say ecstatic was an understatement!!! “Um yeah!!! Of course!!” It was an antique “Great Wheel” that has been in her husband’s family since the 1800’s. Unfortunately, she didn’t have the space to keep it in her house. She knows that I am a true lover of antiques and in particular, early American styling, so she graciously offered it to me. The only kicker was finding a way to get up to Maine and get it to fit in the car. Of course you all know me well enough that no matter what….that spinning wheel was going to fit and make it home !!! So here it is in all of it’s glory!!! I love it and I love my dear friend for thinking of me especially, she’s the best!!!